life

life is now
life is moving
life is moving by
life stops
life starts
life continues
there is so much life in this world
there is so much love in this world


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i am the only one who knows how i feel
where is the balance in life that i so often sought out
why cant i have strength
where is the courage i once had
there is no safety here
distance
cherish your proximity
dont cry
feel how you want
cold
i feel cold
i feel relieved
i feel stifled
i feel trapped
hold me because i am scared
because no one else can
i feel so ashamed
like a child who has misbehaved
a child who knows better
a child who seeks mercy and comfort
who needs love, only Your love
take me out of this box
let me spread my arms to love
let me be unashamed of myself
let me be able to embrace myself before i can embrace others
how dare you
how dare i
i just want to live a life that will not shame You